Brain Swimming

         ??????????????????????????????????????    Brain Swimming is a sport taken on by individuals who are burdened by worry and major decisions that must be made when one is in financial trouble. All of a sudden you have no money and a great deal of time on your hands. If you were working like you wanted and were able to, then you wouldn’t have any extra time for worrying, right?

         I have worked since I was 14, nearly forty-eight years! You know how it is, get up, shower and put your face on, get kids up and dressed, feed them, check book bags, pack lunches and get them to the bus stop, drive to work and do the grind responsibly for eight hours (now its more like ten), pick up kids from daycare, make sure they get to ballet or soccer or whatever; then go home to fix dinner, go over homework, get them clean and in bed, after which you do laundry, grade papers, make lesson plans and on and on until 11 p.m. or 12 p.m., finally sinking in bed for a wonderful six hours of sleep, knowing that it all will begin again shortly. There doesn’t seem much time for intimacy or just reading a good book. That is why we take vacations to get away from the grind.

         Unfortunately in 2009 my husband lost his job at the age of 59. Fifty-nine is not a good age to lose your job. In 2010 I had a bout of hypoglycemia and was left in the care of third graders because no adult could come relieve me. The American for Disabilities Act requires that diabetics be allowed fifteen minutes to take care of hypoglycemia or hyperglycemia.  This was a recent addition to the disabilities act and I was unaware of it.

So in 2010 I retired for my health.

         This is when I began brain swimming. I had major dreams and an unbelievable memory of them. My dreams were about money and the lack of it both personally and in our country. I looked at the reason that my husband lost his job and why he could not find a new one. Why had the school system ignored my health needs? The answers to these questions became certain because I had time to research them, talk to people about them and think about them nearly all of the time. Then those dreams began running in my head like movies.

         That is when I wondered if I could represent the USA in Olympic Brain Swimming. Of course not, but I could write and I did. Therein was the birth of Illusions, A Republic Lost.


Whoa-What Happened!

Whoa-What Happened!

Perhaps I have become more emotional as I age. I know one thing. My brain creates full color action packed dreams that I remember for a while in the mornings. One night I had this awful dream in which I was taken to an indoctrination center by ‘friends’. In this indoctrination program I was drugged and ‘trained’ to want no freedom, learn a new language, and believe in another god. The people in this dream are clear to me. What stood out the most was that everything was in black and white when usually my dreams are in color. When I awoke I remembered my dream so vividly, I went to the computer and wrote it all down.

My husband, John, and I have been financially struggling since he lost his job in 2009. He was 59 and unable to find work, therefore our income dropped down to one third of our previous year’s income. We took our savings and bought a franchise. In 2010 I retired from teaching school. Diabetes and the direction of education in North Carolina were the causes of my early retirement. I also thought that with my help, our struggling business might improve. Alas our efforts failed and the business was closed after two years. We could not make enough money to support ourselves in this economy.

Illusions: A Republic Lost

We had time and no money, so we became political. We learned why the economy was not improving and how important the future of America is. We are living in the last third of our lives. We have a daughter and granddaughter. What legacy are we leaving our children? These fears are the cause of my dreams and the reason I wrote Illusions: A Republic Lost.

I took a break from the writing the book to volunteer for the Republican Party of Mecklenburg County. I spent hours on the phone calling people to encourage them to vote. Sometimes we surveyed people to find out how they were thinking.  That was interesting. Some did not care or thought that their one vote did little. Many were afraid of the future if we re-elected our current president.  There were some that molded the title of my book because they seemed disillusioned by the promises that would never be kept by our leaders.

I cannot see a brighter side in the near future and need help doing so. I am a thinker and a doer.  Is anyone seeing a brighter future than me?

Illusions: A Republic Lost

DSC_0565“Jessie is a young girl who enjoys the traditional southern life of a small town where faith, personal freedoms, and independence are a way of life. When she reaches the ripe old age of seventeen, the United States of American is torn and its citizens are living within a total maelstrom.

She and her family experience an invasion and a new world that Jessie can hardly believe to be real. Why had no one seen this coming? Survival without the freedoms they once knew as inalienable is the dilemma and taking America back is their goal.”

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